Torn up in a genuine way

I am bothered and wishing I were detached.

I have people complaining that my work is anti-feminine.

I guess I have been anticipating this response.

But I am trying to delve into the anti-feminine drives within women that force us to act outside of our own self-interest.

And beyond gender - I want to write a story about self-destruction.

I wish the noise would stop because I have to tell this story.

I promise I am genuinely investigating, never half-assed.

How can it be? I've felt the violence and it makes itself known.

I think women writers should have the freedom to write whatever stories present themselves to them. Never questioning, less doubting, charging full steam, certain that the reasoning behind the motivation will make it self un-mysterious in time.